The Lord Giveth and The Lord Taketh Away.

On Easter Sunday, April 4th we began to lose our baby. What devastation. We went in on April 8th and had a ultrasound. Sadly there was no heartbeat. I felt as though I had been kicked in the stomach. My mind shut down. Numbness followed. Our Dr. was very sweet. He shared that he and his wife had experienced two losses. He stressed that our losing the baby had nothing to do with anything I did. Losses just happen. We chose to have a D&C on Friday the 9th. The hours and minutes before the surgery were agonizing. I am so thankful that the staff and my Dr. were so caring. It was over in about an hour. I feel as though I have a hole in my heart that is dark and lonely. I miss my baby. Baby Bunny is what we called him or her.
I know that God has a plan and a reason for every moment of our lives, I will cling tight to that fact. He will restore me.

This is the tree that we planted in memory of our Sweet Baby. It is a Crabapple. In April, the month of our loss it will have beautiful white flowers all over it. I also bought the Serenity Plaque to place at the base of the tree.